Quenched — the Thirst of the Sarmatian Woman

Jesus answered and said unto her, Whosoever drinketh of this water shall thirst again: but whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life. John 4:13-14

When Jesus met the Samaritan woman at the well — from a judgmental point of view — one might conclude she was looking for comfort or security in relationships—and leading an immoral lifestyle.

What I know and believe about men — they surrounded her like a pack of wolves—misled her—and took advantage of her! No wonder she felt lifeless!

Until we step in her shoes, we should withhold unfair judgments—and simply understand the void in her life—that no 'man' could fill.

John 7:37-38 In the last day, that great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried, saying, If any man thirst, let him come unto me, and drink. He that believeth on me, as the scripture hath said, out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water.

Anybody who knows me—knows that I lost my husband to cancer back in 2023.

He started showing signs of it back in 2018, but brushed it off as nothing.

I began to feel as though I was losing something; I thought I was ill.

I had physical symptoms—then came the terror attacks...

This type of anxiety attack set me back a week each episode I had—I felt like I was going to die each time!

Ian lived a normal life all the way up to the very last week of it. He was in excruciating pain the last few months. I did everything I could to keep him comfortable. I was going through the motions on the outside — meanwhile, I was in denial that he was dying—on the inside.

During this time, my life was anything but normal. I had many nights where I was fully asleep—yet I was fully awake.

Some days I wondered why I was still alive because I had so many symptoms that made me feel extremely unwell—yet I was fully functioning.

Little did I know that Ian was drawing on my 'life' as he was losing his! This is a phenomenon that occurred as the cancer was devouring his body.

During Ian's final moments, I held onto him tight. His spirit communicated to me that I had to 'let go'. I did. He took 3 final breaths — all 1 minute apart — and then he was gone. Although it was painful to see him go, I had a sense of relief in my spirit—and have not had a terror, or anxiety attack since.

I am partaking in a few grief outreach programs. One thing I have learned is that many grievers deal with the symptoms after their loved one passes — not necessarily before. One thing I do know is my experience is unique and no one can take it away from me.

Psalm 63:1 O God, thou art my God; early will I seek thee: my soul thirsteth for thee, my flesh longeth for thee in a dry and thirsty land, where no water is;

Even the Psalmist identified those around him as 'lifeless' — which brings me to my next point:

Amos 8:11 Behold, the days come, saith the Lord God, that I will send a famine in the land, not a famine of bread, nor a thirst for water, but of hearing the words of the Lord:

When we read the Bible, we often create our own interpretation of it — which is based on our perception and experience.

Not me. I seek an association so I can identify with it. I have now come to believe that we must draw on his (Jesus) life — just the same way Ian drew on my life. I never really knew what this meant; "Matthew 11:28-30 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." To "cast" means to 'send forth' or to 'summon'—which is a formal call to take a specific action that is not within your scope of ability. That call comes from our inner-person: —

"Genesis 4:10 And he said, What hast thou done? the voice of thy brother’s blood crieth unto me from the ground." This too is a phenomenon that Abel experienced in his passing. Another thing I did not actually realize is I was summoning the LORD to make a way so that I was well cared for. I am grateful because that manifested!